is what kinda guy renembers your favourite flowers if their not your boyfriend?! its even impossible for a boyfriend to renember your favourite flowers so why does my best friend of 4 years who i ignored for a year renember my favourite flowers?
why 4 years ago did we both like eachother but ignored it?
why back in janurary when i texted him for the first time in a year did he say he liked me again?
WHY DID I TELL HIM THAT HE WASENT ALOWED TO?!
generally 'miss' him right now and i know deep down im purposely commenting on his wall with names every day so piss off julya so shes gona be all HOW DO YOU KNOW ALL THESE PEOPLE BLA BLA BLA
uuummmmm cos even if i do really like him, hes my best friend and thats what best friends do, we pretty much know eachother inside out.
no guy is able to open up about their sadness yet when hes feeling sad he comes to me to talk to. . .they always say if a guy and a girl want to hook up they dont need to know about ex's and problems etc but wheres the fun in that?
i help him and he helps me.
hes apart of my head fuck and i know im apart of his head fuck but hes too nice to say so.
i hope this holiday hes on does him the world of good, i just hope that me commenting him everyday wont confuse him.
ive told him that dispite the fact that i like him in THAT sence, im happy to just keep as friends. . .3 people have asked me this weekend if me and tom are together yet and when i said no were just friends their all HE WILL COME AROUND SOON ENOUGH, HE NEEDS TO QUIT TALKING TO HIS EX, IM TOO GOOD FOR HIM BLA BLA BLA or its I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY YOU HAVENT GOT A LINE OF GUYS AFTER YOU YET IF ITS BEEN 7 MONTHS?!
its cos im not looking for anyone, im happy being single, im just desperate for the company, im scared to go back into a relationship cos im afraid of heartache again.
plus i dont want anyone, i just want it to stop being akward between me and tom, i want us to be able to hug whilst we watch a film.
im just lucky hes a decent guy and that when we do like eachother (never at the same time) it never effects our friendship cos thats more important than fucking it up. . .not even birthday nookie and a webcam session can ruin our friendship
I'm Emily. I can be a big ranter sometimes, but who isn't?! I'd like to think I'm a bubble of sparkley joy. . .(not to sound big headed) Currently studying Textiles at UWIC where i plan to become a celebrity designer. I'm addicted to living life like they do in the movies, i.e chick flicks, musicals and love stories. 1 day I'll find my Daniel and live happily ever after :)
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