theres no harm in living in a dream world

I suppose it gets a little bad when your heart starts to flutter every time you start writing a little extra more to add to the dream world.

Its saddening to know that there is no such thing as perfect yet here i am creating the perfect life/relationship knowing its never going to happen.

Falling in love with a make believe guy who will never be real, yet i see him pretty much every day.

I should probably stop, cos I'm creating someone he is not and if there ever became a chance to get to know the real him i could be disappointing myself.

I know that somewhere in the world there is a Mr Perfect for everyone, just who and where is he?! I cant be going round with every single guy in the world to find my Mr Right. I want him to be waiting outside my halls in an hours time with a bunch of freesias looking all tall, dark hair, mysterious and handsome.

But that is never gonna happen. . .unless i find this tall, dark hair, mysterious and handsome man and tell him to do this in the near future.

Its nearly been 5 months since I've been single, and I'm loving it, but I'm craving the company of a male now. I just want to be lying on the bed with my head in his pit falling asleep whilst hes stroking my hair.

I want to be cuddled from the back and for my heart to skip a beat every time he kisses my head.

I want what i used to have. . .but better.

Unfortunately, there is no chance of me ever getting this till 2013. . .not that I'm planning it like that but i need to focus on my studies right now, ill be off to America hopefully in 2012 which then brings us to 2013.

I don't want a couple months worth of a fling with a guy cos i know id fall for him.

Him being HIM. . .Daniel.

Ouch.

Maybe i should hit the world of reality for today and make myself realise that its not all sparkly and dreamy in the real world.

I've had too much of the real world in my life for the last 5 years and i cant handle that either.

I cant handle the real world cos its one big stab in the heart and i cant handle the dream world cos its too pretend and wishey washy.

I want to share my happiness with someone, i want to feel loved, i want to be able to wake up in the morning to a love text, i want to call him and tel him about my day.

I want never gets.